A Heart of Desire for Reunion, or "Is it the Airport Gramma?"(sigh)

April 3, 2009 | Categrory: kids and deployment, loss, military families, military kids, parenting

Today I picked up my grandchildren at their daycare , with the plan to use the end of this beautiful Colorado day by going to the park. We have been a bit cooped up with cold air and snow, so I knew the kids would love some outdoor unrestrained playtime.

I told them that first, we would be going to the car wash ( a real source of entertainment, especially when the soap sprays onto all the windows and we are in a dark cave in some unknown world!) Secretively I held onto where we were going until the kids started to guess. This game came to an abrupt end , when my 7 year old grandaughter shouts …”I know, we are going to the airport!”

Oh Lord, it was like a punch in the gut, and I felt so bad that I had to tell her that it was not anything that wonderful or exciting today, but just a trip to the park down the street.

Later, since my daughter was recovering from having her wisdom teeth out, we watched a movie. Marley and Me. If you have not seen it, suffice to say, it is sad. If you already had sad started, it was a good way to get tears flowing into a cleansing flood. All this was topped by news that our son, her Daddy, would probably not be coming in May, but possibly June or even July ( she does not yet know this). Our sense of loss tonight was magnified by fatigue. As I held my sobbing little one, my own heart was working on my own losses and blessings.

Tears are so much a part of deployment. Not that it is that way all the time, but the truth is, they are a cleansing of the missing and the loneliness . This photo is our girl, hugging a photo of her Daddy. One day soon, it truly will be the day for the airport. None of us can wait, What a wonderful day that will be!

One Response to “A Heart of Desire for Reunion, or "Is it the Airport Gramma?"(sigh)”

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