It is 10 p.m. and I just got off the phone with our oldest son who is spending his time these days in Iraq.
We talked about things going on here at home, things he is doing there, things that happened when he was young, things I did when I was young. We talked about why he is where he is, and why he does what he does.
We talked for nearly and unheard of hour!
I am so proud of him, and I am proud of all of those men and women who serve this country day after day , taking care of our nation, while the rest of us go about the daily routines of our lives.
I listen to his thoughts and feelings about life, the decsions he has to make, and though my mothers heart would like things to be safe and easy for him, to him that would be like being in a prison. He loves the changes, the challenges , the way things are never routine. Sure there are routine days, but in the military, something is going to change soon.
I would never ask that this man, who used to be a boy that never let me rest…to live a calm and “normal” life. This son of ours has found what he really loves to do. Not many people really find that, and so I am happy, even though it means I have to live missing him, and knowing in the back of my mind that he is in dangerous situations more times than I could bear, if I knew about it.
We got a certificate in the mail, that thanks us for our son’s service , acknowledging the sacrifices we make as a family. I told him on the phone that it is very nice that they send that, while we sweat it out here at home…he laughed.
Well, I can go to bed content for tonight, having heard his voice, knowing that at least for now, all is right and things are quiet in his neck of the woods. There are moments that the proud heart of a military parent rises in me, and overshadows the other moments when it just feels bad. Tonight is one of those, and I will bask in it as long as I can.
Goodnight … they start a new day as this one ends here at home. Lord watch over him, and his buddies, and thank You for having him call tonight. It was a very special Valentine!